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Niki

i heard, that he has been in a very close relationship
with his male friend Niki.
i was surprised, because, at our friend`s house
they hardly glanced at each other.

art

we have an art project together . it was his idea.
i took my "time to get rid of" oil painting, and
laid it on the floor back side up.
then he urinates on it a few drops every day.
i call it "slow art".

no use

i have been extra nice to him after those
small upsetting accidents at our home.
sometimes i feel too tied up to him, but
there is no use to tell him that.

again?

oh, i hope he does not think i purpously want to hurt him.
slippery floor (he fell down).
a picture dropped down from an edge (missed him 50 cm).
what next? am i going to be a murderer again?

5 am

we don`t sleep in the same bed. not even in the same room.
when i woke up this morning, he was standing by my bed,
staring at me. it was 5 am. i went to make some coffee.

lily of the valley

on the way home from store, i stopped to pick up flowers.
they look nice on top of my bureau.
we soaked our feet in cold water. my feet are bigger than his.

ice cream

i suspect he is sleeping most of the time i am away from home.
but he never says anything about it.
i served potato sallad today. and secrectly ate an ice cream.

water

he was laying on the balcony, eyes half open. tired.
it got hot, so i brought him some cold water to drink.
then i poured the rest on top of his head. he did not move.